(house) betrayal

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Title: Betrayal
Fandom: House
Characters: Chase, implied Chase/Cameron
Notes: I wrote this during the interem between seasons two and three while obsessively watching season one again and getting caught up in the Vogler episodes. This was my attempt at understanding Chase's motives towards the end of the first season.

It wasn’t easy at first. In fact, you wondered if you’d even have the courage. Betrayal is not a suit one easily fits into. It is cramped, confined, murderously uncomfortable. For a time. But then you wake up one morning and find the suit is a perfect fit, and you’re left wondering whether it has been tailored to fit you or if it is you that has conformed. You look at your actions and you know somehow the suit has changed you. Betrayal is the name of the game, and the game just got a whole lot easier. You can look them in the eye and not feel the slightest tinge of guilt. You feign surprise at the thought that someone is playing eyes and ears for the new sheriff in town. Even when he learns it is you, there is a smile on your face. You still have your job. Found a way to get him before he gets you. After all, they always do. You are the weak one. You are the one with the least to lose, and somehow that makes it feel like the most. You don’t expect them to understand. You’re supposed to be a saint. So you fake it.

- July, 2006